I am sending you a hug. I don't know what else to say. I'm sorry you feel this way. I have had facial blindness at times. For me it's an autism thing. That can also be triggered by intense trauma. Brains are weird! I hope you know that you are loved and are special and you are good. It doesn't matter what the world thinks of you. You wrote an honest post. That makes you good even if you don't feel good. Therapy has never worked for me. I will never know what truly works in this world as I have my own internal world. I guess that's my escapism. Please stay writing and stay alive. I will think of you and pray for you.