Personal Reflection 2/4/23
I once made a promise to someone, “Promise me you’ll always be authentic.” That has been in all my books and brand. It saved me from going to a brand manager who would only help me if I agreed to sleep with him- which I did not. I believe there is a war in the world between authenticity and fake fame. Audrey Hepburn my hero is real fame. I know why Audrey is timeless = Love.
Fun fact: I was thinking about Audrey Hepburn’s intensity when she took photos, and I was told this photo is slightly cinematic. I had her in my heart when I took my modeling photos. I don’t look like her but she was my inspiration. I think of her every time I take a pic!
I was thinking of this photo when I took the above one:
I was trying to match the intensity in the eyes.
Anyways…that was mostly for fun.
So my gift is that I can read souls, faces and body language. Here is what Audrey’s says to me above: great love from great poverty and neglect (she survived starving in WW2 and her dad leaving her). She has a sorrow in a lot of her pics. In this one, I see determination to find love. That’s why she comes off so romantic. There’s a security of self there. She wants to be herself too. She is authentic. Her full humanity is in this face. I see character, the will to survive, determination and selflessness to help others. I see strength that is unmatched. She creates her own art and beauty that has meaning. She does not tolerate evil (see the sternness). She is empathic and human rights advocacy with powerful love (later she worked for Unicef). This is a face of conviction, power and purpose. It’s a photo of ethics and grace. She is a perfectionist. She has high standards for herself. I see self-discipline on another level. She is so focused she can’t feel the trauma. She is running from trauma in her greatness too. She does everything with great feeling. She is a lover. She is also isolated in herself, an introvert. There is a guardedness to her heart’s needs. She gives, but doesn’t always receive. She is a poet and philosopher. She loved to dance so could be thinking about precision here.
So that’s what I see. It may not be accurate, who knows.
Update — this was re-edited.
This is the photo I took for fun dressed up as her.
I’m always right where I need to be and solving the problem that needs solved in front of me. One day I went through every shade of color EVER to pick out scarlet or the one for my logo design.
I didn’t intend for that color. I also knew there are two reasons I chose a rose: I had a vision where my grandma handed me a red rose and because of Sophie Scholl and The White Rose.
I never told anyone this but I found Jacob Cass because one of my ex abusers once followed him on twitter. This isn’t a correlation between the two. But my abuser was very tech savvy. And I searched for tech people and designers. This one caught my eye. I love my logo. It’s perfect for me. Sometimes good can be taken from bad…but I want to be clear it doesn’t justify the bad.
I’m happy I made it to this moment.
Sarah
